does sharing your opinion, playing devil's advocate or questioning the validity of a statement amount to trying to pick fights or arguments? i don't know...but that's all too much for me to figure out. i never quite thought that one's opinion, if opposed to another's, necessitated the creation of an argumentative atmosphere. but then, i don't understand many things...

it's amazing how busy people are...they don't have time for anything...But, everyone stops when stuff goes wrong, no matter how busy they are. it's like that day i got into a car accident...i had so much stuff to do at school, an AP test the following day, but...when the accident occurred, everything just stopped. it's a little awe-inspiring and disturbing at the same time...

just had an argument with namrata...

it's scary how many things come out when people don't really censure what they're saying--myself included. but, also, how much one learns--how much truth is revealed. i don't like people holding grudges, nor do i like to hold them myself (i usually have to remind myself to remain mad at a person after a while). you know, the thing is...pride can ruin most things, especially if you let it take a hold of you. why is it that whenever people hear an argument going on, they have to join in? i'm still upset just thinking about the events of 5 minutes ago. sometimes one regrets what one said...or allowed...perfect ruin to a ruinous day

So, I told myself I wouldn't start one of these things--but I guess I couldn't help myself, it seemed all too appealing. I've been sick for the last 6 days, actually, I think i've been sick since I got here (being Berkeley)--it's either the air, the food or the people (AHA!). Anywayz, it really sux being sick for many reasons besides the fact that you don't feel too good. First of all, I couldn't keep my eye on that roommate of mine, Raquel, who has tried to throw me out the window of our six floor dorm room twice--for now. The direct effect of this was probably a worsening of my cold. I'm convinced that she stuck me half out the window for a prolonged amount of time, causing me to catch this multi-faceted, every symptom sorta sickness that can kill. I also had two midterms this week. You know the saying about shit hitting the fan? Well, it all comes at once, if you know what i mean. i had to cram in all my studing basically the night and a half b4 the midterm for my nutri sci and then i had a fever during the test anywayz, so i felt pretty delusional. i won't tell you how i did. oh yeah, while studying i was also playing music...specifically, "All By Myself" by Celine Dion, while huddled at my desk in a dark room w/ a single light on, alone...and i got LAUGHED at by Katie Rose (floormate)....i didn't look THAT bad! Anyway, never make yourself an easy victim. only listen to that song w/ others in the room or with the door closed. As for today, well, mr. mummble grummble math teacher has slowly killed away 3/4 of his class...i'm wondering how long i'm gonna last (at least i won't have classes on friday)....