If you don't help yourself, who will?

I've never cried more in my life. Some days I wake up with salt on my cheeks because I am crying in my sleep.

Most days I work on the verge of tears.

I do everything I can to distract myself from the pain. I am so distracted I can't focus.

I need help.

This is not a cry for help. It's a f*cking scream.