I figured it out! Eureka!!! (Perhaps I shoulda changed the ordering of that...) Anyway...It's my apartment that depresses me! I hate going back there--unless there's food involved. B/c then all I worry about is my work, it's freakin' quite & lonely as hell, and of course...no Internet.

However...

when I'm travelling I feel fine!

So the solution?

Travel like hell...Yeap...run run run away from your problems. There's nothing better than that, huh? Actually, it sounds quite appealing to me right now.

...as a result...I'm never home.