I can't sleep.
I've been doing a lot of thinking.
I think I think too much.
I want to post a real scathing scathing post.
It'd be a fun read. I promise.
I just don't want to unleash such horrible thoughts onto "paper"...not quite yet. Let them simmer a bit more. The trick is to simmer long enough, making sure there is plenty of water...so nothing gets burned, or worse, explodes.
The thing is, I always forget about that last part. I let things sit, and sit, and sit, and though I ignore it at first, I try and forget it later...sometimes I succeed. But invariably, I will remember, right before it explodes, and that just hurts more.
Oh kay. I will get some sleep.
I barely understand myself.
Sometimes, I just wish things didn't hurt me so much.
And mostly, I just wish I wasn't so numb about everything...except what I want to be numb about.
I hate so many things. Or, at least, I feel that way. But then, I really think about it carefully, and I don't hate anything at all...not really.
You know, sometimes it's all just not worth it. Life is too damn short.
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